I want to dedicate this song to my mom. I want her to know my feelings towards her even though I don't show it. Unlike other mothers and daughters, my mom and I would always go against each other. Sometimes I could feel she hated me so much she just wanted to throw a knife straight into my heart and let me die already. A lot of times hen I do things back against her, she was all, cursing at me, yelling at me, and all those horrible things a female teenager could think of what their mothers would do. I love my mom, really, but I just don't show it. I don't even look in her eyes. I know she does hates me, when I act stupid and crazy around her and granny, I just know it. Thinking all about hatred and things that weren't supposed to be right between me and my mom drive me crazy. I could seriously die. She says all I was was just an unwanted daughter of the family and wish I'd just disappear right in front of her eyes. Yes, she did. She said that. To me. Sometimes I even caught myself wondering if I was really her daughter. But then, I thought thinking of what was bad would just make it worse, it wouldn't really help. I heard a lot of people talking about this song when I told them how I feel. I listened to it, and all of the sudden it seemed like a fairytale. I want the relationship between mommy and me to be like this. I don't want it to get any bit worse. I truly want my mom to hear this song and understand. But who knows if she ever will ..
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